She wants to help anyone who is facing depression, for she is facing it too . She knows how it feels, she’s fighting daily too – she just simply wants to help.
She knows what it’s like being empty, she knows the feeling of hopelessness, and she definitely knows the feeling of wanting to be alone and isolated by society; yet still not wanting to be lonely. She knows the thoughts of wanting to fade or disappear so no one can see you. But in reality you feel so invisible already you are yearning for someone to reach out “say it’s ok” and give a hug.
She wishes that you would open up and talk about how sad you truly are. Talk about how you are scared and how you cry about the fact that you don’t even know who you are anymore – as she has been there.
She wants you to admit that you’re confused as to whether or not the same person who walks out of the door with smiles and laughter is the very same person who goes to sleep while crying, yearning to skip through life a little faster or for it to stop all together. She has been there.
She knows depression, and yes she knows it well.
She wants to remind you that she’s not like some people who just wont understand or will confuse the distressed troubled you with the plastic happy face that you put on every now and then.
She will understand that you just might not be capable of trusting other people, because based on pass experiences. And that this is not all of this just a delusion to cover up the dreadful past you have tried to erase.
She knows that all the pain you have ever experienced, is nothing compared to the internal emotional pain you are now feeling from within. The hours spent staring at the piles of medication while the battle rages on inside your mind.
I know how it messes with your mind and I know how it alters your actions – it did it to me too.
I want to help anyone who is facing depression, for I am facing it too. I know how it feels, I am fighting daily, I just simply want to help – maybe we will get through it together.